Monday, September 16, 2002

Over slpet this morning...oh boy that was pretty fun....i had to rush to take a shower...missed my ride and my mom had to take me late with her. School was alright. it doesnt feel like it should be a monday. after school i went with tori to lunch. then we drove over to wells fargo so i could deposit some money. then we drove over to my house so we could get an envelope so tori could put ryans letter in it. then we drove over to ryans work which was an experience in its self and i walked in to his work to borrow 2 pieces of tape so i could tape it on his car. so i hope he gets it. then i came home... I called Ryan this afternoon. I dont think i should have. omg though he sounded so cute on the phone. it just made me like himm alittle bit more which isnt really possible. I think ive been acting very naive though. I mean who else would fall head over heels for a guy she knew for a week. I honestly though there was something there. Maybe we could make it work or something....but i guess thats not gonna happen...just another one of my dreams that isnt ever gonna come true.
*Samantha*

Saturday, September 14, 2002

This weekend has been pretty aweomse so far. Last night i went to like half the football game and then we left to go to a party...i mean fusion. it was so much fun. then i spent the night at jessicas and then my madre picked me up at like 12:30 and i cleaned my room. I think jessica might be coming over tomorrow. the plans are for sure we're going to huntington beach next weekend from friday to saturday. jessica has a hair app. at like 5:30 then i think saturday we're gonna go shopping and fun stuff like that. since huntington is more than halfway to escondido i was really hoping ryan might be able to come down and chill with me for the day....but i dont have the balls to call him...suprise suprise. and im sure he wouldnt come even if i begged him too. so oh well. i have to come up with a way to get lots of money though....i need lots and lots of money. theres so many things i really want to buy...i made a list today which was a huge mistake. but in huntington im just gonna get sunglasses, a jacket from the vintage store...and any cute shoes and winter clothes i can find. Jessicas grandmas a pack rat so i think we get to go through her closet! which would really cool just seeing all that old stuff. well im beat so more whenever i get a chance.

Monday, September 09, 2002

Oh boy im tired. Schools been pretty good i guess. Im getting awesome grades in all my classes except math. I blow in math. But i really need to pass it...so i hope i can. This is gonna be a really busy week. I have tons of crap i have to do after school and stuff. My car is looking somewhat better everyday. im surfing it out so its gonna be a cute beach car. im gonna do a really crazy color. like something no one would normally do. like light pink or light blue or something fun like that. and im getting a stereo system and new lights and i hope air conditioning...well when summer comes next year i think im gonna need it. So it should be pretty cute when its all finished. well im beat so i'll try and remember to write more tomorrow.
*Samantha*

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

Im baking. its to freakin hott out here. where is our cold weather? we're supposed to have these thunder storms and crap the nect few days. i love it. i like when it rains when its warm outside. friday im going to the dodger game. im excited. i havent been there all year. well im gonna go
*Samantha*

Monday, September 02, 2002

Well this weekend was pretty fun. this weather has been crazy. almost to hot to handle. i got a new car today. i actually like it alot. its a pretty cool car! so im excited. im glad i only have 4 days of school this week. i love it. i think every week we should have mondays off...tha'd be sweet. well im gonna go
*Samantha*

Saturday, August 31, 2002

went to fusion last night with almost everyone...well sort of...i didnt actually go inside but oh well. i babysat all day today...then i came home and did dinner and a movie with lauren then we went and got ice cream. i had alot of fun. tomorrow i have to go to church with my mom and then i might go do stuff with my dad. im debating weather or not i actually want to go though. i miss him but i dont like the choices he's making...it really upsets me. and maybe if i dont go he can realize i dont want anything to do with him until he gets help or something. so we'll see. well im beat...so i'll write more later.
*Samantha*

MOOD: tired

Friday, August 30, 2002

wow i had super bad cramps this morning at school. i honestly thought i wasnt gonna make it. they hurt so freaking bad. today altogether was a very interesting day. so i leave school to go to lunch and shopping and stuff with tori but she forgot her sunglasses at home so she wanted to get them so we drive up to her house and we were inside for a whole 2 minutes, when we walk back outside her car is leaking this green fluid. so its like oh shit what do we do so we called her mom and she told us she was gonna call aaa to get a tow truck cause we couldnt drive it. so we wait like an hour for a person to come drove the truck all the way down sanfernado...it was fun. well im going to fusion tonight...i hope its gonna be fun. dancing sounds pretty fun. well more later
*Samantha*

Wednesday, August 28, 2002

School was ok today...i feel asleep in peer counseling on accident...ooops. after school i went to togos with tori and brian. i swear brian is the funniest guy in the world...i laugh the most when im with him. hes so aweosme.lol oh man. ive come up with the stuff im gonna do for my birthday. i just have to run it by my madre. i hope its gonna be ok. i was gonna have ryan come down...for my party...maybe he would. i'll have to ask him. im classifying jessica obsessed with beans. its gotten scary. but i still love you jessica. but you're really scaring me. more later
*Samantha*

MOOD: happy
MUSIC: AFI: god called in sick today

Tuesday, August 27, 2002

karate tonight wasnt bad...i learned a new kata. tomorrow i have church instead...yeah. im happy tomorrows wednesday...halfway done with this week then.oh boy im excited. still havent talked to ryan...oh well i guess...i'll talk to him when i talk to him. well im beat...more tomorrow.
*Samantha*

MOOD:tired
Wow i laid down on the couch at like what like 3:15 and i totally fell asleep. wow that felt good to take a nap. i have a major headache now... karates tonight. oh boy im tired still...i dont want to go and i have no food in the house...which means no dinner again for me tonight...bummer...well im gonna go
*Samantha*

MOOD:pain
MUSIC: vertical horizon:everything you want

Monday, August 26, 2002

went to karate tonight. it was ok. its kata week so we're just gonna go over the same old stuff everyday this week.boring..but oh well. on wednesday im going to church though so thats ok. its labor day weekend...and im not gonna do anything thats fun. oh well. it would be yummy if ryan came down, but theres not a snowball chance in hell that that would EVER happen...kinda sad. oh well. im making him come down in october...so i'll see him october november and then december...hopefully...keeping fingers crossed. im wide awake but tired at the same time...weird...i know its gonna be harder then hell to wake up in the morning...it always is. i really miss ryan...ok im talking about him way to much...changing subject. i had to write a poem for school today..i wrote it about ryan...ooops..god i swear im sooooooo freaking retarted. ive known him for like what 2 weeks and hes all i think about. yeah thats sick. i dont remember if i was like this with sean...it was a year ago like tomorrow....very weird. god time goes by so fast. ive been through so much shit the past year..id have to classify the past year as my most dramatic year. no joke...so much weird stuff has happened to me and my friends. kenneth might be coming down next weekend...that would be weird. i want sean to call me...i think id call him a basterd and then hang up on him.. yeah that would be good. i seriously hate him. ive never been played like that before.god what a jerk. my dad went to dinner with my sister tonight. he did something and she was really mad at him so he took her to dinner and kept apoligizing well thats what carly said. jessica might be comiong over tomorrow if her mom says yes...i think its gay if she says no...thats kind of retarted like why the hell not...theres no excuse good enough. i want to go wakeboarding. my birthday is in 38 days. oh boy im excited. ok well im gonna hit the sac.
*Samantha*

MOOD: excited
MUSIC: Leann Womack: I hope you dance

Sunday, August 25, 2002

Ok i think im in love....again. but i think its really love this time. not just lust like it was with sean. i went to ventura with jessica today. we ate at the bumble bee i mean busy bee cafe and we went in wild planet. i had a great time. i miss ryan. im driving myself crazy...i think about him way to much. and he doesnt even know i like him. oh well
im gone
*Samantha*

MOOD: tired
MUSIC:sugarcult:lost in you

Friday, August 23, 2002

well its friday! boy am i excited! no school tomorrow...thank the lord. i saw the movie blue crush today. oh my god that mokie was so freakin good. it totally makes you want to go surfing.i have this really bad cough. i think im gonna give in and have my madre take me to the doctors. it just keeps getting worse...maybe they can give me medicine or something. still havent talked to ryan...boy i miss that boy. for the few days that id spent with him...i dont know i just feel like we clicked...but i think if he felt the dame way...he would have made an effort to talk to me alittle more...but who knows...we'll see. im sure he doesnt like me im ugly. well im beat...so i promise more tomorrow.
*Samantha*

MOOD: tired
MUSIC: Greenday: she

Monday, August 19, 2002

Wow well today was the very first day of my junior year. it was ok i guess. my first class starts at 7...but im out at lunch which is so awesome you dont even know! i love getting out at lunch...it is so much fun. i went to baja fresh with tori lauren and kayla. and we didnt have to rush back to school or anything. i have to go to karate tonight with jessica....it'll be fun ....except for the fact that i havent stretched in 2 weeks. i know im gonna be really sore tomorrow. for some reason i am so happy. i cant figure out why... i dont think ive ever been thsi happy. im not even kidding. and like nothing has even really happened for me to be this happy. well im gonna go watch tv now.
*Samantha*

MOOD: happy :)
MUSIC AT THE MOMENT: weezer: keep fishin

Saturday, August 03, 2002

Went to target this morning with my mom. i had to get a bunch of crap for camp. like food and shampoo etc. then i got to drive down to sunland (on the freeway) to get money for this work i did for my dad. driving on the freeway is so much fun. i like it. then i came home. i have to leave to babysit in like 20 minutes. yippie....not really.i think im gonna go over to laurens house tonight at like watch a movie or something....shes letting me borrow this really big duffle bag. so im just gonna hang out there for awhile. well to the shower i go.
*Samantha*

MOOD: tired
MUSIC AT THE MOMENT: Goldfinger-99 red ballons

Friday, August 02, 2002

Went to this farmers market place in hollywood. it was alot of fun. then i cam home and packed a bit of my clothes for camp. i cant believe im leaving in like a day. its come so fast. i cant wait. i think im gonna have alot of fun. i know theres gonna be a shit load of drama which is a drag but i'm gonna try to avoid it as much as possible. tomorrow im babysitting from 11:15 to 5:00....thats like all day. well at least im getting money. i did this work for my dads work and they're paying me 85 dollars for it. im excited. kk well im gonan go cause i cant think of anyhting else to say
*Samantha*
MOOD: content
MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:Blink 182-damnit

Thursday, August 01, 2002


JESSICA: im taking over samanthas blog thing!!!! lol, dont tell her!!!!!
I cant believe its August 1st already! Holy cow. my summer is basically over already. thats really crazy. im leaving to go to camp on sunday. Im really excited and not at the same time. im kinda worried about leaving my mom for a week. she kinda needs me around for support and stuff. but she keeps telling me that shes gonna be fine. so i hope shes right. i think im gonna chill alittle with lauren today. shes says shes gonna make me talk to sean today. i dont think i can do it. after all this time of not talking to him or anything its gonna be super weird. i have no idea what the hell to say to him! im honestly so sick of even thinking about! and im driving my friends crazy!! cause no matter what im doing or talking about something happens or something and i think of him. it always goes back to him. its disgusting. im so mad at myself. well hopefully i can get it all figured out today. jessica says everything is gonna work out and life will be perfect...but when...i feel like ive been depressed for months and months. im gonna drive over to kmart with lauren today...pick up some camp stuff...like magazines and film and batteries and stuff. i need to talk to jessica about a menu. we bring lots of food and candy cause the camps food is like eating a huge pile of horse shit. or theres like cereal. and i dont want to get sick. but theres a little diner there that has really good food. so i guess all my money is pretty much going to that place. i hope i have fun. i really need to have fun. i have the house to myself today. yippie! my sister just left to spend the day with my aunt and my mom is at work all day.....sweet. i cant wait until san clemente. its gonna be soooooooo much fun. getting up with the sun taking walks on the beach surfing and getting tan all day!!!!!!!!! seeing blue crush with some hotties i meet during the day. i am sooooooooo excited. i keep having this dream everynight that sean comes up for a few days...sometimes i think all my dreams wanna do is make me more upset. oh well. im gonna go...i'll write tonight with the happenings of the day.
*Samantha*
MOOD: tired
MUSIC AT THE MOMENT: AFI- God called in sick today

Monday, July 29, 2002

stayed home all day today...bored as hell. went to karate though...its break week. so we get to break wood and boards and stuff. exciting...i'll prolly break my wrist which would be really shitty. i hope that doesnt happen. started crying today for like no reason at all....well thats a lie...but still. i shouldnt have been crying. i swear i let the littlest things get to me...i'm so retarted... well im beat so i'll write more tomorrow...
*Samantha*
yeaI went shopping yesterday! i got 2 new pairs of really cute pants and 2 really cute shirts. then my cousin drove us down to malibu and we walked on the beach. it was so funnywe were walking down the beach and this lifeguard was whistleing like over and over again i was like hello are we alittle bored. i guess you had to of been there. well no more to say...
*Samantha*

Saturday, July 27, 2002

Babysat like all day today.... i swear little kids are such brats...i hate it when they do that little cry like im gonna fall for it!? hello i had that like mastered when i was little. i wouldnt get to do what i wanted so i wolud scream and cry until i did. and this little girl christine wanted to leave the baby sleeping in the house all by herself while we go outside and play hop scotch...im like uh uh christine and she freaks out screaming tears the whole thing. i start laughing going you're getting better at it christine..and she just gets worse...so i ask her why shes acting like a baby and i pick her up and lay her down in the office and tell her not to come out until she stops crying. she must have been in the for like 15 minutes just screaming...wanting me to come in.....then she stopped. i think i put her in her place....no more crying thank god! after i got home finally at like 5:30 kristin came and picked me up and we went and had dinner at panda express...then we drove up to brians house. he is so freakin funny...omg! hes awesome. then we went over to starbucks got some coffee and then we came over to my house and watched john q...it was an ok movie i guess...well i have to get up early so more tomorrow.....
*Samantha*

Friday, July 26, 2002

went to dinner at a mexican resturantlast night! it was yummy. got in the car without going pee first and i almost peed my pants on the way home. we all had to pee and lauren was the only one bold enough to stop along bouquet canyon in the middle of nowhere to pee! it was soooooooooooooooo funny! oh my god. i get to baby sit all day today...im leaving in a few minutes. i got to talk to jessica for awhile this morning! shes coming home tuesday! im excited. i was gonna drive to the airport with her mom to pick her up but i haft to go to karate or else i wont get my yellow belt. but i think on her way home they're gonna pick me up afterwards. well im leaving
*Samantha*
went to breakfast this morning like i said i was doing. it was ok i guess. then i came home and kristin and lauren picked me up and im at laurens house now. we're going to lake elizabeth tonight to have dinner. hopefully its gonna be fun. im babysitting all day tomorrow then i think im going out later in the evening. i think we're gonna go see a movie like austin powers or something. i cant wait until sunday! i get to go shopping all day with my cousin then we're driving to malibu to watch the sunset and sit on the beach! i love going to the beach at night. its so pretty! i get to do that 6 nights in a row down in san clemente. i get to meet lots and lots of boys too. yummy. well im leaving so i'll write more later!
*Samantha*

Thursday, July 25, 2002

i went to my last day of summer school today! yippie!!! im so excited! lauren picked me up afterwards and we went to lunch and then we drove around and ran a few errands ! it was alot of fun. then i went to her house and we watched a movie and then i went to karate. tomorrow i think im going surfing at santa monica ! yeah baby! im excited. jessicas still gone! im sad! well i cant think of anything else to say believe it or not...
*Samantha*

Wednesday, July 24, 2002

not going to karate tonight....my mom is going to the lion king play and im gonna go to burbank to chill with my cousin. maybe see a movie or something. im not going wakeboarding tomorrow...laurens brother couldnt find us a board. oh well. not a big deal. i passed math! i get to move on! i cant believe i pulled it off! i got jessicas package she sent home with her mom! it has so much cool stuff in it! shes awesome! i was gonna send her a package but i was worried something would happen to it, so im just gonna make her a bigger one when we go to summer camp. my abs hurt! yes..... that means my 6 million sit ups last night are working! gosh i cant wait until camp! i really cant wait! goodness! i was listening to a cd i burned from my cousin and its this love song about how it didnt work out and the guy still loves her and a line in the song goes" i think i miss you more on wednesdays and saturdays! " how crazy is that? i mean i miss sean the most on wednesdays and saturdays cause thats when i used to see him all the time. well i thought that was pretty random.well im gonna go...i'll write more later!
*Samantha*

Tuesday, July 23, 2002

today was a long day. i went to summer school then my cousin becky hung out with my for awhile and then she dropped me off at karate. Karate was pretty fun. its workout week or whatever. so master frank was working on our thighs buns and abs today. i have a feeling im gonna be pretty sore tomorrow. oh well. i can take it. im going to huntington beach with jessica next thursday for the day. we're both getting our hair done. well im pretty sure i am. if her aunt will do it for free then i will. im gonna write jessica letters everyday for camp so she will haft to sing...shhhhhhhh dont tell her.!!! hahaha love you jessica. i think im gonna go see a movie on friday night....maybe. ausin powers is coming out. no offense but i hate beyonce. i think shes gonna fuck up the entire movie!!!!! im so glad summer school is ending this week. im so done with it. jessica bought me stuff from michigan and she sent the box home with her mom today. well im off to bed.
*Samantha*

Monday, July 22, 2002

its monday. i had summer school today...its the last week. thank god. on wednesday my math teacher is giving us our final a day early so on thursday i dont haft to come to school until 10. jessica called me today. we talked for like an hour. shes sending me something! im excited. i wonder what it could be. i ended up not going to church on saturday after the wedding..i went to the movies with lauren and mike. i saw sum of all fears. no offense to anyone but i hated it. it was really boring. i got this stomach thing yesterday and i was throwing up all day yesterday...while i was throwing up i passed out in the bathroom. and i still feel sick! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i think im gonna go to karate tomorrow and wednesday then i think im gonna go wakeboarding on thursday and then to a santa monica beach club on friday then im babysitting all day on saturday and im going to the beach and shopping with my cousin becky on sunday. i cant wait until summer camp! i really wanna leave this town for awhile! the movie blue crush comes out august 16th and im gonna be camping. i guess im just gonna haft to watch it down at the beach somewhere with some really hott guys im gonna meet there. still crushing on sean. im so stupid! but i think there might be something there with this other guy i know.....i guess i'll have to wait and see...well im gonna go. I promise i'll write more tomorrow!
*Samantha*

Friday, July 19, 2002

spent the night at my aunt and uncles house last night. went out with my cousin today. we went to the beverly center and i got some clothes. tomorrows the wedding. i have a really cute dress. laurens gonna go with me to help set up and everything then we're gonna go to church. i hope seans gonna be there. i finally have the balls to talk to him. well im exhausted. i'll write more tomorrow.
*Samantha*

Thursday, July 18, 2002

YIPPIE its thursday! which means i dont have summer school tomorrow. i went over to laurens house today after school. we ordered pizza and watched passions (the tv soap opera). i dont even know why i watch that stupid show. but im so into it. i have to know whats going on. jessicas still in michigan..... :( . my cousins wedding is on saturday...i get to be there alllllllllllllllllllll day. a major drag. well im gonna go
*Samantha*

Tuesday, July 16, 2002

yeah my life is fucked up. i was just smacked in the face with reality. my life isnt perfect. i thought i was one of the only ones with a perfect family where my parents were still together. that was flushed down the toilet. why the hell cant anything just go right in my life. i get over something that was really difficult to get through in my life....then something else happens. fuck fuck fuck......... i need to find shoes for the wedding. i have no idea what kind i should wear with it though... well im gonna go do some homework.
*Samantha*
today was a long day. i dont think ive ever been as tired as i was today at summer school. i almost fell asleep like 500 times. im going to karate tonight. i have to go to six more classes this month and then i get my yellow belt. im excited. im finally getting it. jessica called me from michigan she got there 2:00 california time. i went to lunch and a movie with lauren today. i saw star wars. i thought it was a pretty good movie. im going wakeboarding for sure on thursday. im excited.....i hope i dont get as sore as i did before. well i have to get ready for karate....i'll write more later tonight when i get home.
*Samantha*

Monday, July 15, 2002

we ended up going to santa barbara to law on the beach and go shopping. i got a new walet and a dress for my cousins wedding.we had alot of fun . well i know i did. jessica leaves tomorrow. i need to go over to her house tonight to give her her shot glass and i need to get my bathing suit.....i left it there. well im gonna watch a show...i'll finish in a little bit.
I woke up this morning and my mom told me i didnt have to go to summer school today if i didnt feel good. my sister isnt going either and my moms gonna try to find someone to cover her at work. I think we might go out and run some errands. I need to get a dress for my cousins wedding. And shoes....i get new shoes. im excited. i want to shave my head. my hair is driving me crazy. i wonder if it would look bad if i shaved it. im really hoping my mom will find someone to cover for her at work. well im gonna go find something for breakfast. bye
*Samantha*

Sunday, July 14, 2002

its sunday night...tomorrows the start of another week. I know its gonna be one of the worst weeks of my life. ive been sick most of the day and im tired. something else happened but i dont want to write about it. tomorrow im going to karate at like 4:00 and i'll be there until like 9. on tuesday i think im gonna go to a movie or something with lauren. on wednesday om either gonna go to church and pray like crazy or im gonna go to karate. on thursday i think i might be going wakeboarding with lauren again. i have no idea what im gonn a be doing on friday...prolly getting things together for my cousin mindys wedding on saturday. jessicas leaving on tuesday... a bad time to be leaving me...im gonna need her to talk to. still havent talked to sean. i think im gonna write him a letter and burn him a cd with one song that describes how im feeling about this whole thing. i need him right now... i wish he would call me. oh yeah i met up with my friend mike today...i think we're gonna be chillin alot.... hes a really cool guy. well i haft to get ready for summer school tomorrow. later
*Samantha*
I went over to jessicas house yesterday and we swam for a bit, then she put more purple in my hair. at like 6:30 we went over to master franks house to babysit his 4 kids....never again. well they were good until it come to bed time... they were walking all over jessica. today we were supposed to go to a movie but jes talked back to her mom and she freaked and drove me home. so jessica has to clean and im sure she wont. well im gonna go find something to eat.
*Samantha*

Saturday, July 13, 2002

I went to city walk last night. It was alot of fun. We ate at the hard rock cafe and then went shopping....there were so many people there like more then disneyland at like 3:00 in the afternoon. I couldnt even get through the stores. and those people were so rude...just pushing and being rude...so i couldnt really enjoy it. well today i think im gonna go over to jessicas but i dont know what time. I also have church tonight and i bet i'll forget the papers that are due today. my moms in big bear with her friends right now and im home with my dad and my sister...i think im gonna go crazy. i really want to go to the movies. i wonder whats playing i'll have to check later. nothing good is even playing anyways. gosh i cant believe my back is still sore. i only have 2 weeks of summer school left...i hope i pass math. I really need to pass it. i want to go to summer camp. its gonna be so much fun. tons tons and tons of cute guys. well im gonna go...till tomorrow or later today.
*Samantha*

Find grains of wisdom and kernels of truth. Your orchestra is tuned and ready. thats my quick horoscope for today...that could mean so many different things for me.... i guess im ready for the truth. i can take it....interesting...

Friday, July 12, 2002

well i didnt sleep in as late as i though i woudl its only 10:15....oh well i guess its good enough! I had some really carzy dreams last night and the strange thing is is that i remember all of them....i usually dont remember my strange dreams i just know that they were strange...hummmmm... well todays the day i get to go to city walk. then tomorrow im gonna go over to jessicas house and swim and then go to church and then spend the night at her house. funfunfun. my back is still hurting gosh dangit! wow i really have nothing else i wanna say...strange...
*Samantha*

Thursday, July 11, 2002

wow karate was fun.....i got my 2nd and third tip which means im gonna be getting my yellow belt soon.... im excited. tomorrow angelas picking me up at 5:30 and out reservation is at 6:30....yummy. My back and every part of my body is still hurting. I wonder what i should wear tomorrow....? jessicas leaving on tuesday....im gonna go to karate with her on monday then im gonna have to go by myself for the rest of the week. i think im starting to get over sean...although i still love him i dont consider myself as clingy as i was before. i just need to get smacked in the face with reality. well im gonna go shower
*Samantha*
wel im more sore then fuck...i can barely stand it...and i get to go to karate tonight!!!! alright someone call 911. i cant wait until tomorrow...dude im excited. i get new stuff...shoes and clothes and candles and a toe ring..i need a toe ring. wow pizzahuts pizza isnt good at all. its the only plasce mi madre would let me order from. cant think of anything else to say...thats weird...
*Samantha*

Wednesday, July 10, 2002

well today was a long and hot day! I went to summer school then i chilled with tori lauren and kristin most of the rest of the day! God its hotttttttt. i hate this! tomorrow i think im gonna go to hurricane harbor then on over to karate. Im still sore from karate...it beats my muscles up. i cant wait until friday! i really wanna go to city walk. well im tired...
*Samantha*

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

i got to go wakeboarding today...had lost of fun. did a few good falls though. I think i pulled a muscle in my leg...it hurts. I missed karate though...oh well. I think im gonna go to karate tomorrow...id rather go to church, oh well. well im more tired that anything so im gonna go to sleep.
*Samantha*
im off to go wakeboarding!!!!!!! yippie

Monday, July 08, 2002

I went to karate tonight.... we just reviewed all the stuff i already know. I know its good to go over stuff to master it...but it still gets really boring. I talked to lauren today we're going wakeboarding tomorrow for sure! Im soooooooo excited. But im hoping im gonna get back in time to make karate class. I get to go to city walk on friday night for angelas party. We're eating dinner at the hard rock cafe and then i think we might see a movie...although id rather go shopping...its still gonna be fun. I applied at western bagel a few months ago and i was talking to angela cause she works there and she said they've made two stacks of applications the good ones and the bad ones and im on the good side....so im keeping my fingers crossed that maybe they'll want to hire me???!!!! im hoping..Still thinking about sean and i curse myself everytime i do...i feel bad that im in love with him still...and yes i know it was love to all yuo non believers....you know who you are. love at 16 is a possibility. Jessica's gonna be leaving on tuesday for michigan...what am i gonna do without her??? Shes my best fried...i do everything with her..oh well i guess i'll have to do soome stuff with my other friends i havent seen most of the summer! Oh well i guess it will be a good thing. God its fucking HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!! im sick of this its bullshit!!! I mean its not even barable. well im gonna go read some of my book...till tomorrow....
*Samantha*

Sunday, July 07, 2002

Im at home now. I had fun at jessicas house. After we went swimming i made an attempt tohelp her clean her room. I think its looking way better. I watched tomcats while helping clean...very interesting movie. It was really funny though. Yayyy i get to go to summer school tomorrow, im so looking forward to getting up at 6:00 in the morning in stead of like 10 or so. I have karate tomorrow night as well. Im excited. I love going to karate, although its going to be kinda akward...oh well. I think me and jess might go early and just chill there and do dinner at chiles and just walk around. I hope im not gonna be sore though for wakeboarding on tuesday...that would kinda suck. I still cant get sean out of my head.... no matter how hard i try i cant just move on...god i hate that! Everyone keeps telling me hes a jerk...but i still think there wrong. theres something about him that i avent figured out yet. Im just gonna haft to stick around and see. well i have to try to sleep...i'll write more tomorrow.
*Samantha*



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Ok im at jessicas house again. We ordered lampost pizza and we're watching swordfish. We're gonna go in the pool in a little bit for a swim. I have to go back to summer school tomorrow. I hate it! 2 and 1/2 hours of math and then 2 and 1/2 hours of art. I dont how much more of this i can take. Oh well at least im getting credits. I miss sean still. I had a crazy dream about him last night. Why are guys such jerks.? Since when do they get to make all the decisions? Well im missing to much of the movie...i'll write more later.
*Samantha*

Saturday, July 06, 2002

OK its official i hate my life.... I wish there was a bridge i could jump off of. I went to church tonight and sean was there! He didnt come up to me or say hi...and he didnt sit next to me or anything! what the hell is going on! How come nothing ever comes easliy to me! I thought i found like a great guy! Boy i was wrong. I just need to hear him tell me that he doesnt want to be with me anymore. Oh well i guess i'll take this as being closure. Tomorrow i get to go to tellys for breakfast! God theire breakfast is good. Im hoping jessica is gonna be able to spend the night. She has to wait for her parents to come home, before she can know if she can come over. Well im gonna go sulk...its sick isnt it...? that im letting a guy do this too me...Im not gonna give up that easliy, prolly cause i always wait until a good one comes along...i guess its gonna be awhile.
*Samantha*
p.s. I totally forgot to mention something: I was walking up to church with jessica from la cocina and these two mexican guys drive up and basically tell us to get in the car...i dont know how we got them to leave but i was soooooo scared!!! i'll tell you more tomorrow.

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Its saturday, my dads birthday, and hes at work till 12:30. Church is tonight.I was supposed to go with jessica and dave to dinner at la cocina but i get to do dinner with my family. Oh well. I need to go shoe shopping and clothes shopping too. I need more summer stuff. Im going to city walk on friday! Im excited, i havent been there in years! well i cant think of anything else to say
*Samantha*

Friday, July 05, 2002

Well im home and its 9:40pm whats wrong with what i just said....? I went to the movies tonight with jessica..i saw mr.deeds. It was an ok movie. Not one of adam sandlers best. I have to go to church tomorrow to turn in my summer school papers....im hoping sean will go...but im sure he wont be there.I think i get to go wakeboarding on tuesday with lauren! Im soooooo excited..I havent gone since like last summer...i miss it!!! I fell so bad about this one thing i did to jessica...i said something to someone i shouldnt have...and it got to all the wrong people...i fell like i fucked it up. But she seems like she doesnt really care...but i still feel bad. Well im gonna go find something for dinner.
*Samantha*
OK its friday now...i think im gonna go to the mall today...maybe see a movie and do lunch or something.Tomorrows my dads b-day...hes turning 46. That seems old. I cant think of anything else to say...
*Samantha*

Thursday, July 04, 2002

do be do be do
Well im at my gradparents house, having so much fun i can barely contain myself!! I think i might go over to jessicas house afterwards...we get to play with fireworks. Or i could go see a movie. Wow my too options, i hate this stupid town its so freakin boring, theres nothing to do here!!! I need a boyfriend! All the guys out here are wither super cocky or way to immature, Oh well....Well my burgers ready...bye

*Samantha*
Wow its the 4th of july and im stuck at jessicas house doing nothing! I wish i was at the beach! The 4th of july is so overrated i mean fireworks woohoo!!! Im glad i get a 4 day weekend though. I cant believe my mom is making me do summer school. She told me if i didnt do it i would be grounded for the summer! What the hell is that all about! But at least im getting credits out of the way! Sean still hasnt called! What the heck is going on! Boys......... they suck!(no offense to anyone). I mean we used to be together and then it just ended with like none of my consent. He never even told me he wanted it to be over. I really need a job! I need money!!! I went to karate last night and i am sooooooooo sore! I didnt go for like two weeks cause i had to go to drivers ed to get my permit( i passed ) so i havent been stretching or anything, i mean it hurts just to walk. I need to get out of this town! I cant wait till august, i get to go to summer camp then im going to san clemente for a week! Hell yeah! Well im gonna go!
*Samantha*

Wednesday, July 03, 2002

im at jess's, i put purple in my hair......what the heck are you supposed to put in the first one of these things?
sam